There have always been things I’ve cared passionately about over the years. Most of them remain pretty low key due to fear. Fear of being judged or worse, abandoned by those I care about. I couldn’t tell you when this fear presented itself for the first time, but I have felt this way for as long as I can remember. I haven’t been honest with myself for most of my years and it’s something I battle with every single day of my life. I know I’m not alone. So I am here today to say that regardless of who I lose in my life for standing up for what I believe in, I will dedicate the rest of my life to being more transparent, faithful to those who are faithful to me. Like I said yesterday, I have been on a downward spiral with my depression and anxiety. All this time, I’ve thought that I needed some sort of closure or resolved issues from my past to excel in this life. All along, it has been right in front of my face. With the influence of others, I have self-sabotaged myself. This needs to stop. Those who have hurt me, or speak their minds regardless of how it will make me or others feel, don’t give it a second thought when opening their mouths or posting to social media. They don’t care if we agree with them. In fact, I think they prefer you don’t . These people like to argue. They may call it having a discussion or “debate”, but I think that’s BS. I prefer to keep the peace and I will not apologize for that, nor will I accept false judgement of me for being compassionate about something that matters. If I share anything, I’m going to do it will genuine and kind intentions. I will never force anything on anyone, but I will stress the importance of real world problems. We don’t have a lot of time on this planet, and I’m finally ready to make my life worth living, even if it means I’m alone. At the end of the day, when I leave this earth, I want to leave a legacy of honesty, integrity and I want to go out knowing I did what I could to make a difference.
Just a side note. Religion aside, you may believe in whatever higher being you want. That’s the best thing, you’re free to be or do whatever you like. The same goes for me. But at the end of the day, it’s about getting love right. There are things in this world out of our control. Everyone has a different perception of who and or what is controlling it. Many of us have peace in our hearts for whatever reason that we have a purpose to fulfill and a place we will rest when our lives end. That being said, if you aren’t harming anyone or anything, it’s okay to explore other avenues or be open to other knowledge and facts. I know there is a this huge controversy over Science & Religion. I believe there is a middle ground to be met and my biggest hope is that one day, the people of this country and of this world will finally come together and realize that we are all in this together. We will never be able to completely eliminate our enemies, but we can certainly try to make peace and have enough respect for humanity to put differences aside along with the greed and work together.
Peace & Love